Update.
Hmm..I MUST USE PROPER ENGLISH!!
Ehem..
A long time it has been and so dusty has my little hut grown. to be :( Anyways.. its been two chalets, One Ubin chalet and one class chalet-cum-Neth's b.dae party and two boring weeks of school. I've learnt quite alot these weeks. Haha. Strangely, it's only been 10 days since the Birthday chalet. It feel like a month ago. Maybe it's the amount of changes and events that i've been through that made me feel so.
I had lots of stuff to blog but can't recall much since i'm down once again with some bug *yawn*. A brief recap recalled memories of writing 4 offical letters to lecturers, going to foreign classes, awkward moments in ex-class, some special occurrences with different people and two chats with lecturers.
Anyways, learnt alot about dealing with people, you, me, everybody. Chatted with the girls and some fellas whom i didn't really interact with in the past. Perhaps it's my disbelief in myself that had prevented me from all the things that i could do. Perhaps it's really what shackles all of us.
Drunk 1/2 bottle of red wine and bits of Volka during the chalet. Welcomed the heat and dizziness from the foreign substances. With swelled guts, i went on to help the situation when Kenneth was drunk and chatted on with my dear classmates. With a laziness stemming from my drowsiness, i shut out all the doubts about myself and hindering thoughts and did what i did from instincts and will. Glad to have did that. It was a valuable lesson. Anyways, had a really long chat with Nigel. It was enjoyable. Haha. I thought and analysed too much, so much that i was disorientated from natural instincts and empathy. Anyways, i was touched by the girls and some of the boy's reaction when they saw Yong Chuan. Ah F***. I guess he really have to see his grave before he will sob. Infact the anger shown by Sarah when she saw Yong Chuan smoking brought a slight sorrowness to me.. haha i wondered if she or others will feel this way for me too if i ever harm myself.
Anyways, the moral of the story is: Don't Hesitate. Close your judgemental eyes and move closer with your heart.
Haha. Short recount of stuff that happened:
Ubin chalet- Wet blanket everyone.
Class chalet- Enriching experience, was of help. Had fun playing soccer :D Wanna brush up soccer skills.
Wrote letters explaining absence. Very indirectly "suan" one lecturer in one of the replies. >:P
Caught up with all of the classes.
Borrowed a book on natural sciences and theoretical physics. Finished the physics book.
Waved good-bye to aeroplanes twice.
Went for two ninja-do trainings, skills are improving.
Chatted with lecturers.
Speaking of my chat with them, i learnt quite alot of stuff from them. Hmm. I hope to study Biotech in RP but my new lecturer dissuaded me. She told me that biotech is cramped with the "best of brains" and ultimately, theres not much rice bowl, true prosperity only laid ahead for those with PhD for Biotech and mind you, you need to get your degree and masters before you can get your PhD, which takes 5 years and extraordinary achievements to complete. Rockson's(a beng blogger) blog also mentioned it. Gosh, i thought alot but i guess i will stick to my plans. Engineering, on the other hand, seems to be pretty sunny to me. Hmm.. why didn't the government clarify about the prospects of biotech guaduates. Hmm.. i would like to see how " beautifully bloomed" the future biotech economy will be. If i chose this path, i will have to make sure that i will not get stuck as a technician.
Met my ex-classmates.
At least the girls are still quite friendly. F***.. why did i purposely chose to repeat the subject. Anyways stop considering about requesting to add back the modules that were automatically dropped when i repeat the two modules. The guys were quite alright too, except a few i guess. Hmm.. my instincts were right. Maybe i do have some insight into people's heart. They feigned ignorance when i waved at them the other day. Nevermind. I have my CCA guys with me. 5 to 3. I have not lost my pride, i was not lonely in spite of their rejection. I guess i can't blame anyone if they were to start to think negetively of me, since i'm repeating two modules and disappearing for no apparent reasons. FREAK! I can't be a perfectionalist now too, since i'm pushing back two modules. At least i better and did futher than them for similar subjects and communicated with lecturers and new module mates. Thus, i could not be considered "pathetic" and "irresponsible". Hope to tighten the friendship with two of the quieter guys and three girls.
Gained some insight from my father's story too. Haha. Lots of lessons to learn from these weeks, hope to be able to digest them. I feel much more ready now. One year was not spent in vain.
Haha. At least i have my polians around me. Damn, can't thorn overnight at Ben's house. Meeting lecturer with dad on friday to explain my absence. Hah.. oh well. Another chance to learn.
Another 57.5 hours to weekends! :D Haha.. my BFB( big fat bundle of joy) is one month old on saturday. Looking forward to good food!
Ehem..
A long time it has been and so dusty has my little hut grown. to be :( Anyways.. its been two chalets, One Ubin chalet and one class chalet-cum-Neth's b.dae party and two boring weeks of school. I've learnt quite alot these weeks. Haha. Strangely, it's only been 10 days since the Birthday chalet. It feel like a month ago. Maybe it's the amount of changes and events that i've been through that made me feel so.
I had lots of stuff to blog but can't recall much since i'm down once again with some bug *yawn*. A brief recap recalled memories of writing 4 offical letters to lecturers, going to foreign classes, awkward moments in ex-class, some special occurrences with different people and two chats with lecturers.
Anyways, learnt alot about dealing with people, you, me, everybody. Chatted with the girls and some fellas whom i didn't really interact with in the past. Perhaps it's my disbelief in myself that had prevented me from all the things that i could do. Perhaps it's really what shackles all of us.
Drunk 1/2 bottle of red wine and bits of Volka during the chalet. Welcomed the heat and dizziness from the foreign substances. With swelled guts, i went on to help the situation when Kenneth was drunk and chatted on with my dear classmates. With a laziness stemming from my drowsiness, i shut out all the doubts about myself and hindering thoughts and did what i did from instincts and will. Glad to have did that. It was a valuable lesson. Anyways, had a really long chat with Nigel. It was enjoyable. Haha. I thought and analysed too much, so much that i was disorientated from natural instincts and empathy. Anyways, i was touched by the girls and some of the boy's reaction when they saw Yong Chuan. Ah F***. I guess he really have to see his grave before he will sob. Infact the anger shown by Sarah when she saw Yong Chuan smoking brought a slight sorrowness to me.. haha i wondered if she or others will feel this way for me too if i ever harm myself.
Anyways, the moral of the story is: Don't Hesitate. Close your judgemental eyes and move closer with your heart.
Haha. Short recount of stuff that happened:
Ubin chalet- Wet blanket everyone.
Class chalet- Enriching experience, was of help. Had fun playing soccer :D Wanna brush up soccer skills.
Wrote letters explaining absence. Very indirectly "suan" one lecturer in one of the replies. >:P
Caught up with all of the classes.
Borrowed a book on natural sciences and theoretical physics. Finished the physics book.
Waved good-bye to aeroplanes twice.
Went for two ninja-do trainings, skills are improving.
Chatted with lecturers.
Speaking of my chat with them, i learnt quite alot of stuff from them. Hmm. I hope to study Biotech in RP but my new lecturer dissuaded me. She told me that biotech is cramped with the "best of brains" and ultimately, theres not much rice bowl, true prosperity only laid ahead for those with PhD for Biotech and mind you, you need to get your degree and masters before you can get your PhD, which takes 5 years and extraordinary achievements to complete. Rockson's(a beng blogger) blog also mentioned it. Gosh, i thought alot but i guess i will stick to my plans. Engineering, on the other hand, seems to be pretty sunny to me. Hmm.. why didn't the government clarify about the prospects of biotech guaduates. Hmm.. i would like to see how " beautifully bloomed" the future biotech economy will be. If i chose this path, i will have to make sure that i will not get stuck as a technician.
Met my ex-classmates.
At least the girls are still quite friendly. F***.. why did i purposely chose to repeat the subject. Anyways stop considering about requesting to add back the modules that were automatically dropped when i repeat the two modules. The guys were quite alright too, except a few i guess. Hmm.. my instincts were right. Maybe i do have some insight into people's heart. They feigned ignorance when i waved at them the other day. Nevermind. I have my CCA guys with me. 5 to 3. I have not lost my pride, i was not lonely in spite of their rejection. I guess i can't blame anyone if they were to start to think negetively of me, since i'm repeating two modules and disappearing for no apparent reasons. FREAK! I can't be a perfectionalist now too, since i'm pushing back two modules. At least i better and did futher than them for similar subjects and communicated with lecturers and new module mates. Thus, i could not be considered "pathetic" and "irresponsible". Hope to tighten the friendship with two of the quieter guys and three girls.
Gained some insight from my father's story too. Haha. Lots of lessons to learn from these weeks, hope to be able to digest them. I feel much more ready now. One year was not spent in vain.
Haha. At least i have my polians around me. Damn, can't thorn overnight at Ben's house. Meeting lecturer with dad on friday to explain my absence. Hah.. oh well. Another chance to learn.
Another 57.5 hours to weekends! :D Haha.. my BFB( big fat bundle of joy) is one month old on saturday. Looking forward to good food!
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