Hut. I'm back

It's been quite a long time.

Haha.

So, it has concluded that i missed my belt grading, i'm not working as a telemarketer and i'm going to forsake a (missed?) opportunity to work, finding prospective models. <-- Btw it's a nice job :) Ogle at babes, approach them, converse with them, get their contacts, get $$. Basic pay $5- 7/hr. Nice huh?

Fcuk it.

Quite a number of "unlucky things" happened these days, mainly because of myself i guess. I'm too uptight, i think too much. So much for the hours spent on marketing plans. Fcuk it.

Quite pissed and disappointed by some other stuff too.

Went out yest to go for the interview before going to work as telemarketer. Ended up that everyone is quiting the telemarketing job and i guess we can't work there anymore cause we've hurt our credibility.

Spent the night outside and went to watch soccer with Weiloong and Chih to watch EPL at some kopi tiam near cwp. Did quite a number of things throughout the night and ate at 4+am . The uncle told us that their rent for half-a-shop is $6000. My bowl of economical noodles and egg is just $1.20. Well, no wonder they work 24 hours and the uncle has another job in the day.

So, Loongi and Chih came over to my house to stay from 6-10.30am.

Yea. Slept from 2.30 till 7.30pm, sleeping soon. Caught the flu bug. Woah. A 100 dengue fever cases per day. Omg. I can't afford the medical bills bug. Please dun bite me.

I did wither from guilt and slap myself if i did such bullshit to others, which SOME people did.

Grinding refines you.

Good night! Sweet Dreams.

Chaos.

I've got to admit. I'm too much of a perfectionalist. I'm judgemental. I'm don't speak from the depths of my heart at times.

Chaos. It's all around me. The stagnant air, the dim lights, the messed up furniture, clutters everywhere. Songs... they came in and out. It's only these few days that i truly get to appreciate them. Yet, they cloud my mind. Only classicals can soothe the anxiety in me. Perhaps i'm wrong. Perhaps.

I've straighten my thoughts alot this year but there's much more to go before i can finally rest my eyelids and sleep, days by days, with ease. Perhaps you don't understand much, perhaps you don't care but it's alrite, for this is a log for myself, a windchime hanging by my window.

I'm too stressed up. I'm too harsh on myself. I use to beat myself and even slap myself. I expect highly of myself for i'd not want to be a pitiful victim who is beneath all others. It's me. I've been abusing myself. I see it all now. I do.

Things are not always what they appear to be. I've lost enough. I don't want to regret more.

Signing off...

Me. 

Taken at woodlands sports hall :) 

Uncovering my potential for acting cute! 

Days

Yea. I'm back. Didn't go for ninja-do on thurs cuz i didn't feel like going. Had some nice time wif chih, nerd, ben, wl, yz and a secret person that i can't name. Haha :P. Played badmt! hehe. Didn't get to play much though, but it's fun! hehe. Very hyper on that day.

Went for pool lame-ness afterwards! HAhahaha! Laughed till tears came out. It's been such a long time.. haha. I'm so pro in tyco-ing that i even shocked myself. HAhahaHA! Won more rounds den the legendary wl ! HAhahaha! Double goals(haha i dunno the actual term :P), impossible goals from rebounding and proxy, winning when wl and yz shot the white ball in after the black ball.. and did all sorts of irritating snoops on yz! Hahaha. Great amusement!

Hmm.. went for job training on friday. Haha. Alot of things to learn, especially about persuasion and communication. I'm easily anxious and worry too much. Must learn to relax.. Hope i can do the job well.. :)

Slept the whole day away today. Woke up at 6+am especially to say goodbye to my parents. And it's me alone again in my shabby house. Depression started to settle in again. The nightmares. Tidied up my room for 1.5 hours. Memories flashed by as the things that were left as they were weeks and months ago were uncovered. Those secondary sch days; those talismans and buddhist charms given to me in desperation; Those simple yet sentimental little things my classmates gave me... Grew more balanced after my parents got home at 8pm. I guess our family don't speak much. It's comfort enough to see my parents though. But after 1 short hour, it's goodbye again as i went to stay over at my grandpa house.

I've to admit. I'm not ready. I need time. I'm afraid of attachments. I'm afraid of attaching myself to people. I'm bewildered. I'm lost. My 1 year plan was right, i need time. I'm sorry...

Had a great time chatting today, but the more i chatted, the greater my fear. Perhaps i'm too much of a perfectionalist, far too strict on myself. Still, I'm very thankful to have met everyone. I'm sorry if i've dissappoint anyone...

Perhaps i'm a loner afterall.


Good Nite. Swit Dreams.

Woot! Evenful days! Close shave!

Haha. Wee! Now that my computer programming projected is cleared, my conscience is clear! My teacher was doubtful that we finished it in 2 days. :P Told her that 'we' burnt midnight oil. Haha. Actually it was only 'me' who freaking rushed everything in 1.5 days! haha. There's a nice smell of achievement :)

Woah. Having a headache now. Lacking sleep for days... the days before i rushed my project, rushing my project, going on nite exploration, walking about and staying awake till 5am on sat, den end up waking at 11+ on sunday and getting myself whisked away to hospital with my grandpa in an ambulance.

Yea. That's why i have disappeared for three days and two nights :D

Sorry Xueyan, for not contacting you. :) Busy these days.

So this is what happened on sunday. I was sleeping again (after being disturbed by my lecturer and communicating between freddie n chih ><) when i got woke up by wl. Wa... how to sleep like that. Den my aunt came in to disturb my sleep too.. wth? haha. Den things turned really serious. I was "blur" and continued chatting with weiloong when she shouted. That shocked me. Still confused and dreamy, i walked out to find my grandma frantic and my aunt at lost to what to do. Then did i cancel my phonecall and realised that my grandpa didn't fall. He "slept". So, i shouted at him and went to get a torch to shine into his eyes, to which he had no reaction at all. Haha, my aunt was shocked by me. An eye for an eye. :P I went on to press the accupoints on his hand and beneath his nose. That gave me some reaction. Then i massaged his belly with force and apply medical oil etc. etc. haha.. kinda boring to recount wad i did. So, basically we managed to get him awake and made him STAY awake. It was touching a scene if you could imagine. My grandma was crying and shaking my grandpa, "Jiong ah, Jiong ah"(my grandpa's name), my aunt calling my uncles desperately, me "commanding" ''GRANDPA!" and trying to make him wake up.

Hmm. It seemed that he did not "sleep", he fainted. I'd be relieved if that's truly the case. But, i really have to watch him. Looks like i'm moving over to stay overnight at my grandparent's house for a long long time.

Yea, so i went to the hospital in the ambulance and waited for my relatives before proceeding to help my parents close the shop so that they can visit my grandpa together. Freak. Reached the hospital again in the night and stayed overnight. Did all this in the ugliest green shorts and blue shirt ever. Freak! I didn't even brush my teeth or take a shower! Haha. But it's quite "nice" to be able to stay overnight at the hospital to take a shower, use the paitent's toilet, watch nurses work and explore abit. Damn, a mentally ill paitent was rested directly opposite us and he freakingly made noise non-stop and kept harassing me. Freak! Had to cancel most of my hospital exploration trip, so that he won't disturb the others by calling to me. A few nurses got irritated and one finially decided to strap him because he was starting to bang the bed and make a hell lot more noise. Woah. He tried to make the nurse back off by punching and kicking, but it can be seen that he's a kind man because he tried to reason(in teochew, which i dun _stand) and pulled back his punches. So, in order for a peaceful resolution, i went over to distract him with stuff like, "Uncle, your pants is untied, i help u wear". Haha. Quite alot of things about the overnight stay and lots of notions to note down here. But that's for another day. Gathered lots of material to write on.

Yea. So that's all for today. I was suppose to stay overnight today, but my grandpa got discharged. :)

Haha. Tired now, so i shan't blog on. Gee. I like nurses. Especially female ones! :D Young ones preferably... :DD *blush*


Good night! Sweet dreams. ;)

Haha. Completed my comprog project and handed it in personally. Phew... finished it in 21 hours... haha X). Think it's pretty cool cuz it has colour and is a freaking last min work too. :D

Went to Ponggol yesterday to visit the "Haunted house"! Haha. It's quite an enjoyable trip but there's nothing scary about it cuz it's a bright night and there's lots of civilisation in sight. O well. Liked it there! I love nite walks, especially those under the unobstructed nite sky, with the full moon shining through. It feels so good and relaxing. I love being outside under a full moon.

Freak. Was thinking of joining Chris and others for a while at Holland village but ended up staying all the way till the end, 3am. It's always cool to chill out in Jq's lorry but maybe i'm too quiet cuz i always grow sentimental and thoughtful in such peaceful ambience. It's definately much more interesting then staying at home too. :D

Haha. Woke up ard 10.30pm today and went for abit of dipping at the swimming pool today! Woah. Didn't get to swim and we left very soon since Freddie was busy. Haha. It's been a long time we met up, esp with Freddie ;) Haha Freddie has grown fitter and tanned! Good. :) Looks great now. Haha. Chih too. :D Only Loongi was appeared according to our expectations :DD

Yea. So, after walking and chatting for miles(literally), we ended up play pool at peak rate. Ouch. The guilt is killing me. Haha. :P $$ can be earnt back though, just don't spend beyond your earning ability.

Yea! Watched 2 nice shows today. Condor Heroes and Huang Fei Hong. Hahaha. Though the moves probably exist only in legends and novels, i'm still amazed by the moves and the stunts did by the actors. Cool... Drives me to train harder in Ninja-do! I wanna do sommersaults, flying kicks and defy gravity!

Damn. I need to brush up my communication skills too. :(

Hmm.. there's so quite a no. of personal stuff to do even when it's the holidays. Feeling detached. Ack.. Need $$ too... nidda work, but only after some things are done.

Ahhh... ain't it nice to be rich and taste all sorts of fabulous things at times? :(

Good night and sweet dreams!

Stonning away...

Haha. This is crazy.. Woot! Spent a total of 16hr 23min on my computer programming project! WAHAhahaHA! @__@ It's 4.55 AM now.

Glad to say that it's quite well done. So much for a 8 week project. Freak! Quite a no. of dudes i know handed in simple programs. Woah. Mine's at a total of 591 command lines, many of which were replaced by functions. Phew. Think i did a good job for the programming part, but freak, juz saw their criteria, time management, sourcing effort etc. Freak. I juz redid the whole project today and my only sources are inspiration and my e-book. Freak. There goes 25 marks.

Well. At least i did a good job. Yea. Freak. If it weren't for Chu Chu, i wouldn't have bothered about the project. O well, have to stick to my word and principles, i don't hand in crap work. If only im this hardworking before my dateline and exams. AGHHH!!! Haha.

Woah. Waking at 9am tmr, meeting Evan at 12+pm. Fish. Hope my lecturer accepts this freaking late work... Ahhh.....

Swit dreams ;)

Dear Bloggy,

Somethings good happened today. Hahaha. I managed to get rid of my P5 cousin by dumping her to Nerd on MSN! Hahaha! Very funny conversation! Im so evil. MuHahA. Nerd u got pissed off bahx? haha btw really la. The maths qn is from me and its a Fmaths qn. I also forget how to do liao.. so dun worry! u didn't lose to a P5 gal, u lost 2 me! Hahaha.

Yea. And while typing a letter ;), Chu Chu suddenly ask me on MSN. "Why didn't u reply my sms-es?". Woah. She had been contacting me but since i just reactivated my handphone yesterday, so i didn't noe. Haha she forgave me after i explained that to her. Phew... she said she hated me last week. Waa.. so theres still a chance to rush my project and hand in. Freak. I muz finish it asap... 1.5 days left. Haha. Had a fun chat wif her too! And she came by my shabby hut for tea time. While sipping the English tea i offered her, she looked at my newly added pictures and she mentioned that Chih, Ben and me are the most hansome! Haha! :D WeiXin wan shui! Ben ben chih chih wan shui! Haha. Too bad she didn't leave her prints on my whiteboard. :( She's my rare visiter from china.

Haha. And chatted lots wif Xy. :) Yea. Wad's most important is the future. =)

Woah. Just inquired abt RP admission from sarah's fren. Woah. Things are looking bad. Buden her fren, Marcus is a successful applicant, and he told me that i'd better prepare a "nice writeup about urself".. omg. His is 3 pages+.. wa!... Haha but den i inquired futher, "o.o any tips? :D" Haha. And he gave me the best tip ever. haha i copy the exact words to here. "go online search for appeal letters" "got alot of tips" ":D"... Hahahaha! I LIKE THAT SMILE!!! HAHAHA!

Keeping a short blog today! Nid to rush the comprog prog now! Good nite! Swit dreams!

Haha.

Haha. These days had been so unbalancing for me, stuck at home whole day doing nothing constructive and getting stressed out by non-sensical happenings in my family. Woah. My health deteriorated with my mood. Hmm.. Juz realised the extend of damage it did when i recalled the past.

Haha. Went to collect my replacement sim-card today at plaza s'pura. Wahaha.. Finally!WEIXN is back from LIMBO!! Haha! Looking forward to getting myself on track! wa.. zhun bo suddenly so enthu. Haha. Damn.

Yea Baby. Haha. As usual, i'm staying over at grandparent's house! haha. Im rocking their house down! haha. no la. Hmm.. but i definately brought life with me to my ancestors :D Woah.. of all the descendents, i seem to be their only grandson. Mummm.. mumm...

Haha. Yea.. did abit of excercises in the morning. Yupx. the sensai Jq brought chris n me to was rite. I have weak ligaments and i need red meat and vitamin B in my diet. Jq warned me too that thinnies like us need to watch our joints. :(

Hai. I dun even get to eat alot of white meat, not to mention red meat. F man. Lifted the 12.5kg weight today. Hmm.. once i supported my hand even if it's my pinky(miny finger), i can lift the weight wif a great comparable ease to doing it without support for my wrist. Wanna go Np's gym and swimming pool for training lei.. but polian like pool-movie-ktv type lei. haha. Depend on Chih to accompany me liaoz. :D

Yea. Recalled my "Lucky Day" during april. Haha if u wanna refer to wad happen to me then, check out my entry on Wednesday, April 13 :D Haha. Could still remember the nite of that day, it was raining cats n dogs(haha my fravourite cliche!) and i was working hard. Haha... That day was really a nice day! The puppies come crowd around and suck my thumb and carry! haha. The mummy stuff her head into my hand to pat and allowed me to play wif her puppies... I got praised by the workers etc... haha. TvT So swit.. it's almost like a dream. Haha. Den had the priviledge to treat the indian co-workers and rescue 3 snails from a crushed end. Woah. Those were the days when im healthier. Hmm.. maybe it's the excercise and staying outdoors where the air is free, unlike the stangant and stinky air stinks in my room.. hahaha(maybe it's juz the rotten banana skins).

Yea. Haha. How was my last entry's title? haha gan dong ma? (touched anot?) :D
Haha write a full entry when i've organised my thoughts :)

Yea. Chiong ARRRrrr!!! Hmm.. jio-ed chris out to swim and chill tmr. He's got sum probs i guess, hope he will chill out tmr wif me at the swimming pool and catch abit of sunshine. It's never a good idea to stay in a messed up house when u're messed up enuff.

Good Nite! Swit Dreams! (haHaha. time to decorate my hut wif PICTURES!)

Chih and me! Yan dao dunnid bai pose de :P Haha. This is the New version of Chih. Chio ba? Woop. i mean Yandao bo?! Haha. Buck up dude and get FIT! Dunnid always envy WC n Freddie la.. train up liao u can touch fit guy(urself) everyday and nite.... ^.^'' ( August ) 

POLIANS!! (1 new member! haha and that's Chih! btw he not wussy liao hor. 6 PAACK hor! haha.) (July) 

Onward and Downward! (June) 

Ning mei(aiyo more like jiejie.. Haha!) & me (aiya messy hair) :D (my bad! my bad!) (June)
 

Me and Loongi (aka my frav thing :D) (July) 

Ninja-do Ubin Trip! Great time! Great Fun! (june) 

It's affinity that we meet. Let's cherish it.

Haha.

I'm feeling thankful now. It's really affinity that we all meet. It's truly by chance that we all get to quarrel and buai song each other. It's really fate that has brought us together to be brothers n sisters. It's hard to explain now, i'll will explain another time. Wish to say a sorry here to everyone... Weiloong, Freddie, Chih, NERD(:P), Ben ben, Yan Zhang and Shan't. Haha. i noe i had my bad ass moments last time. haha. :D

Yea.

Haha. Went to library yest n borrowed two books. One on swimming and one on english essays. Hope to improve my swimming but it's kinda shy and boring to go to the swimming pool alone lei. Haha. Anyone out wanna go swimming/ sun tanning wif me? :D

Yea. Need to improve my english by leaps and bounds! Two month left for me to buck up or i'll screw up again. D:

Haha. Life has been so much better now. There's so much to look forward to.

Buden there's so much more i can and should do. Yet i've got things holding me back. It's like those days during Yjc.. and the first days in our ME class. I remembered telling IMM... "Let's break the ice and bond this class together.". But i kanna high fever n was absent for the whole of the second week. Den shyness and personal issues stopped me. O well. Now the classmates are quite cold. The enthu-ness to gel and make frens has cooled off. I had the power to change the present situation even if i were to leave the class eventually. Now it's beyond my ability.

Yea.

Signning off now. Swit Dreams. Good Nite!

Yea! Got back everything! Haha. 希望在人间indeed(Hope is in this world)!

Yea! Got back everything! Haha. 希望在人间indeed!Hope is in this world! Haha. I seem to benefit alot from the good will of others these weeks... Evan^.^ lend me assignments to hand in, supportive frens, frenly ppl... counter lady who treated me softdrink, waa.. now this angel from malaysia who returned not onli my pouch but also my hp and $20+ to me! Waa...

Actually had alot of stuff to blog down buden too shagged to recall. Slept for 3+ hour yest. n stayed up from 6 till now. Waa... haha. Spent the whole afternoon copying notes.. damn i haven't study yet! Ok, Chapter 1's safe. Hmm.. 6 more chapters to go! and i noe NUTS abt them!!! i didn't go the classes thus explaining the freaking long hours i had to spend copying notes given during tutorial classes. Hmm.. as for my maths test today.. tink i can get a minimum of 75.

Initally wanted to give up and sleep yest. as i wasn't feeling well and was fatigued. Haha. Glad to make the right decision to perserve on. Hmm.. blog next time. Nidda start on my frantical studying soon. WAAAAaaaaaaa!!!

Good nite! Swit Dreams!!

Familiar moments. Recent daze. Lost my sentimental stuffs, hp, contacts n $$

Yaman. Sunk into depression these days. Haha. This feeling that's all so familar... the wiltering of the body, the daze of watching minutes passing into hours and days. Yea. Hmm.. I was feeling weak yet hostile. Even volatile. Haha.

Yea. Went to poly yesterday for some self-training. Damn. Didn't train much cuz senior didn't bring the keys to the clubhouse for the sandbag... D: Slugged into a pool of unhealthy slime over the days too. At least i ran 5 rounds around the stadium and did some pumping, kicking and punching. Haha. Sweating it out made me feel more balanced again. Haha. Jq n Christine's really a fun couple! hahaha. Swit n mushy! :D but not as mushy as my "thumping heart".. hahaha. Hmm.. saw Da Jin too. Hmm.. it's been 5 years? haha he's on his way to being a hunk.

Haiya. Chris is getting himself into some big big mess.. Haix. Sad that im in a deep mess myself so i can't help much. Yea. Went for dinner with Chris n Christine after training at ard 10+. Yea. Haha. Chatting with people (especially a sunny person like Christine) made me feel much better. Yea. Ordered Carrot cake n a mug of sugarcane. Mmm.. Food never fails to cheers me up. :D Probably cuz i dun get to eat tasty food when i was younger. Haha. Feeling so pitiful for myself suddenly. Yea. N Chris brought beer and poured me a mugful since i mentioned earlier that i feel like taking the bitter depressant. Hmmm.. a tasty bitterness indeed.

Yea. Haha. At some point of time in life, everyone will ask themselves these two questions for certain: "M i gay?" "Whats the point of living on?". Haha that's according to Christine's fren. Yup. That's very true! haha. I wondered if i was straight when i was younger(alot younger). Yea, whereas for the second part, i pondered over it too. Pondered over it as i stared into the heavens after peering perilously at where i will land if i jump. Had this notion. "Just a minute more. Hmm.. Another more. One more." Savour this last few breathes and seconds for i will never get to do so again. Suddenly, everything seemed so peaceful. Becuz there was no more tension, no more hatred, no more self-pity, cuz there was no more distractions, only wad's important to me kept flashing through my mind. :P

Yea. Chris voiced this out: There are ppl out there who smile even though they are breaking down inside(lik himself).. yupz. So? It's hard to knock senses into his head(maybe we should try it literally). Hmm.. warned him of his ego but he wun listen.. oh well. Yes. Some people smile even though they are cracking inside. I was one of them, and maybe i'm still one of them. O well. Wad can i say.

Yea. Staying over at my uncle's house tonite.. that's why i can access the net this late. Went to poly this afternoon. Freak. Evan played some basketball friendly n made me wait for almost 1 hour.. haha dun mind though :) cuz i watched some interesting video in the admin office TWICE and met my classmates who were studying. Hmm.. So the prospects of changing course in Ngee Ann is really really low. So it's 80% now that i will go to Republic poly. yea. According to her, the dragon year changed everything. There is one whole pack of ppl out there with no place to squeeze in. Hopefully i will get to squeeze into Rp. It's the most possible poly to appeal in and the most ideal enviroment for me.

Haha. At least i changed Evan's viewpoint of me. He was starting to dislike me cuz i seemed to be really slacky and irresponsible to him. (He's in another class, but he's got his criteria in making friends i guess) Agh.. would really hate myself if i lose a great guy like him, so i gave him an idea of my "personal issues". Yea. Certainly saved this friendship. Yup. I'm a perfectionalist, my output's either excellence or nothing. I dun lik half-f*** jobs. I rather not hand in a thing rather to hand in a sloppy piece of work. Yup. Gave him an idea of why m i insistent on staying one year too. Yup.

Hmm.. joyce didn't meet me for self-study. Haha. So chatted wif Evan instead to Hougang till 6++ Freak. Lost my pouch in the bus. It's most probably stolen. Damn. At least i had my Ez-link wif me, to which i juz brought the $45 concession for. So, i lost my $, Handphone and Student card. Dun really mind, but losing the pouch n handphone is losing a part of my sentiment assets. The pictures in my phone were lost. The phone which traveled with me for so long was gone. The pouch which became a part of me was gone. O well. So are the contacts.

Haha. Evan was like wth??? when i ran off like a psycho suddenly after touching here turning there. Damn. I was quite close to chasing down the bus. Freak. If i had passed the hindering labtop which i nearly dropped, to him, i would have probably reached the bus. I had a feeling that i should check my pouch after alighting from the bus. But after quite some time, the feeling grew very strong n i couldn't believe it when i couldn't find it. Same goes for the gathering, i had a feeling that there might be a gathering today, but i simply dismissed it. O ya, had a feeling that i will meet my aunite too, and truly, she n uncle were there too when i was chasing the bus. Yaman. That's it for today :)

Sweet Dreams. Good Nite.

End of the week.. phew.

Haha quite an eventful week!

Hmm.. had ninja-do on thurs! hehe. it was fun! we had takedown! Wahaha.. was uprooted n thrown down by mark like a bamboo chopstick! :P Haha but managed to counter his locks and pin downs. Hehe. think he fang shui(give chance) to me :D It was fun! One full version of take down n one crounching version wif mark. One full version wif simon n one legs only version wif chris! haha it was fun :D The second one wif mark was esp fun, when we played down-to-the-floor version. :D We used stangulation and lots of locks, esp wif the legs! Hehe countered his pins and strangulations etc by flipping myself over and many fun moves! :D Xinyi n claria was damn KAWAII!!! hahaha.. it's not that im horny or wad.. but the way they do it is damn cute! hahaha.

Wahh! Sprained my ankle when i threw simon down, used too much strength cuz i thought he was heavier.

Hmm.. we trained wif sandbag from wushu too. Phew lucky us TKD had no training.. !@#$ their training area is such a nice place to train in. Did lots of warmup that day. 4 rounds ard the track etc etc. haha. now im careful! Wee! i can sit on the floor while doing splits wif my left leg le! n now my rite leg's getting more flexible. Hmm.. haha think i mastered forward roll.. now i can do standing roll too! Wanna learn jumping roll asap.

Hmm.. Belting is coming in three weeks. Testes 2 more sessions. Haha.. life will be alot more interesting if this stage is passed. Chatted quite alot, esp wif Jq and chris. Got home at 12+ n tidied the house.

Hmm.. today mah.. quite sianz.. kanna woken n den continuouesly disturbed by phone calls. Tidied the house etc and went to eat good food at grandma's house! There's ancestral workship today in our house today so our relatives are coming.. !@#$

Played Warcraft 1(!) on desktop. Haha. brings back childhood memories. Hmm.. went to sch after to meet evan n do my comprog. Fcuk i can't finish it. Well.. im on my own without my partner. :( Yea. So im most prob going back on sun to submit it and maybe going back on monday to ask abt transfer of course, since we were too late today.

Haha.. didn't go for outing today. Hmm.. dunno why i find myself quite detached at times. Took the lift from Jq and chill out wif the guys at the back of the lorry, speeding down the expressway! hahaha. Nice.

Hmm.. read scientific magazine in sch library today. The more i read, the more i tink of "WTF M I DOING IN MECHANICAL?!".. haha

Yea.. Swit dreams! good nite!

Another week passed.. Safely!

Happy Teacher's Day!

Haha. Today's teacher's day eve!

:) went back 2 sch today since tmr's holiday. Haha quite a no. of ppl went back. our class ma.. less den half :(

So here's the list of who went: Weiloong, Neth, Yz, Shan, Freddie, XZ, WeiChang, Pek, Ning, Siewfong, Jieying, Sarah, Norazillah, Nabilla, Chris and Junius.. hmm that's abt it if im didn't miss anyone..

Haha.. Saw the teachers, Mrs Anshad, as usual, the brilliant smile, sparking eyes and full of cool crap :). Mrs Karen Ong, omg, she still remembered my name! hahaha maybe my bloody(as in literally) compositions etched my name permanently into her list of ppl to watch out for. "The corpse jerked to live with a chilling scream. She ran, her dangling intestines swaying as she went. She went, desperatly as she tripped over her intestines and slipped on her blood. She crawled, vainly in her pool of red." Hehe. Man. Hope to get back 2 at least my sec 2 compo standard. Sec 2 n 3 was my peak in my writing. :P

Yea, greeted mrs peter(still as gentle), mrs ng(still as wacko, marriage doesn't seem 2 work on her.. haha), mr chew(still as chubby!) and mr tan(haha still a bamboo, but at least his crown of glory sprout back!) N greeted Ms keoh too.. keoh ying ying. Hehe. She's still very much the same, after her marriage.. hehe. she's the teacher that made me truly feel that my trip has been fruitful.

Haha. She's my form teacher for 2 1/2 years. She's my chinese teacher for 4 years... I can still recall vividly my first day in sec sch. The anxiety, the shyness, the will, the longing, the emotions... everything, all the sensations of being a bewildered child in a new enviroment. It's been such a long time, yet it feels as though it's a dream from yesterday. How she looked, what she wore. She's my bridge to sec school life i guess.

Haha. She commented that i've grown more handsome! ;) *haha thankyou! thankyou!*, den she kept commenting that i've changed. "Ni bian de gen hou bo le!"( You have grown to be so much more energetic and active!) Haha. Den she added: ".... That's Good!" Yea i agreed n i told her in a softer voice and facial expressed as i told her, sec sch was kinda sad for me. :( she should noe. She marked my "zhou zi" (weekly writing) and commented on them. My written world used to be so dark and myself, in the void; locked away in a prision where i would stare out with hatred n jealousy at others, their joy, their blissful energy in the sunlight. My logs, sometimes full of sorrow, other times, full of hatred. Dreams: fear, murder, fights to the death, traveling to strange places, corpse, coffin, strangers, gloom, falling off the clift... Days: stoning, silence, writings in my head, winter in my heart, face, wiltered and masked. Smiles: so akward, aching cheeks, reason for me being gossiped to be fake. Secondary sec days were hell for me. Personal reasons, that most can't comprehend. That's the reason why i decided to stay a year 15months ago. Yes. She would know. Had so much to say to her, but it seemed so akward. She too, she's kinda akward to say somethings to me too, i tink. Chatted quite alot wif her. Haha. She looked cuter n younger den last year le, haha, she curled her hair, kawaii nei~ *-*

Haha. Den nothing much to blog down ;) somethings are best kept close to the heart. Yea, went to Yoshinoya wif Ben, Wl, Wc, Yz, Neth, Jy, Sf, Ph and Sn afterwards. Haha kanna shot by the 2pid counter lady!! Graghh shoot until like machinegun... haha but too bad i dun mind! Hehe. Ben and Neth listen liao dulan for me loh.. haha Buden i dun mind at all cuz i noe she's trying to be informal. :P Haha wad xiao di, xiao hai zi(little boy, child).. cuz i order soyabean ma. LoL. :PWahaha.. Den kanna treated to a free drink by her! Haha. All of us was lik hmm.. wads this extra drink doing here? haha she over n told me later that it's a treat from her! haha. Maybe cuz i smile lotsa bahx. Hmm.. smiling really radiates the better side of humanity. Wad goes round certianly comes round.

Hmm.. Lets reflect wad i did this week.

Mon- Went for a full session of sch. Went for ninja-do feeling weird! actually felt wierd the whole day so didn't really interact wif everyone except wif evan. haha. Hmm. did proper warmup! Hmm.. can do turning kicks and many kicks better now since my strained ligament is slowly freeing up.

Tues- Haha. Went to sch for comprog test. Damn. Blankout. Shook my head awhile after i started. I simiply can't register wad i read. Finished only 11 of 15 questions for the 20min mcq. Got 38 of 60? Den the programming part was quite basic, but i simply can't register nor recall anything. Probably pass at 50++. :P Went for some training and some relaxing moments wif Jq n christine! hehe. They rocks....... :)) Nicest ppl ard... Hmm.. ran 3 rounds, at least my stamina had not deproved but instead seemed to improve. Did lots of stretched and keep looking over to the Kungfu(actually kickboxing) club training. They haf some really good fighters. Haha. But its not for me, neither is the freakingly strict karate, ninja-do's still the best for me! :D
Haha. Learnt quite alot from jq n christine. Hehe. Trained using the punching bag from wushu club too. Quite statisfied wif myself, my punches, chops, knees and kicks. Acceptable power. Nidda improve on my stance. Been very careful wif my hip joints and old injury... hmm tink they will be ok within 2 months.

Waa.. heard quite no. of things abt NP too.. Ghost stuff >:( scary business.. heh heh. Reached home abt 15mins from 12am.

Yea. N wed's today. Went back to MSL. Saw all the good old guys, talked to some ppl who i dun interact wif in sch, lik sarah and pek. Went Yoshinoya and NYP wif weiloong, father shop and back home.

o well.. Poor elaine, always stressing herself out. Haix. Hmm.. everyone seemed to be quite stressed abt their studies. Kuok too, spending time in sch, doing project n group study. They seem to study so much for their course. Me? I wonder why we are wasting so much time in poly when they are quite slack n lax in our education. nb. waste people's time n $$. We dun seem to learn much in our module or rather, class. Hmm.. at least im changing course.

Yea.

Good Nite. Cya! Swit Dreams.